Today I reached out to my doctor, I need help. The past month I’ve been seeing a new doctor, before today I did not tell the doctor I have depression. He asked me many questions and I told him everything, holding back the tears.
I told him how I feel, suicide thoughts the whole a lot, I decided if I don’t tell him I won’t get the right help that I need.
I’ve been struggling since August, I did a post in September since then I’ve been seeing my mental health worker but I still don’t feel any better.
The doctor decided to put me on an antidepressant, I agree with him, tonight I’m going to start them. He also told me he might send me to get a full mental assessment. I’m going back to him in three weeks.
I already know if I don’t take the antidepressant I won’t get better and I will stay like I am. I don’t want to be like how I am and I can’t always have the happy face mask on.
People think I’m ok but I’m not ok.
I should have asked for help months ago but I thought I could (I always think) deal with depression on my own but I can’t.
Thanks for reading.
If you are depressed please visit your doctor and ask for help, it’s ok to ask for help, don’t do it on your own.